Intro
There’s a fire on the hill
And a storm at the door
I keep walking back
But not forevermore
Verse 1
Keys in my hand like a blade in my palm
Same road back to the same false calm
Same walls waiting with their teeth pulled bare
Same old war in the dead house air
I know the script, I know the sound
One wrong breath and it all comes down
Every night is another front line
Every word is a tripwire buried in mine
No bed shared, no skin, no lie
Just two lives rotting under one roofline
A broken pact with a locked front door
And I don’t know what I’m fighting for
Pre-Chorus
But there’s one small voice in the wreckage
One reason I still turn the key
One light left in the ashes
One heartbeat calling me
Chorus
I don’t wanna go home tonight
There’s nothing there but smoke and knives
But I walk through the fire
For the boy inside
I don’t wanna go home tonight
I found somewhere I can breathe, I can feel alive
But I cross back into thunder
For the boy inside
Not forever
Not forever
One day I’ll break this chain
Not forever
Not forever
I won’t die this way
Verse 2
There’s no love left sleeping in the hallway
No soft landing, no peace, no halfway
Just cold plates, sharp eyes, locked jaws
And the daily trial of invisible laws
Every room remembers the damage
Every silence turns savage
I wear calm like armour over cracked bone
Counting hours till I’m not alone
Somewhere else, I remember my name
Somewhere else, I don’t flinch at the flame
Somewhere else, the night opens wide
And I don’t have to bury the man inside
Pre-Chorus
But I still hear him laughing
Through the ruin and the noise
So I swallow down the leaving
And I come back for the boy
Chorus
I don’t wanna go home tonight
There’s nothing there but smoke and knives
But I walk through the fire
For the boy inside
I don’t wanna go home tonight
I found somewhere I can breathe, I can feel alive
But I cross back into thunder
For the boy inside
Not forever
Not forever
One day I’ll break this chain
Not forever
Not forever
I won’t die this way
Bridge
Under blackened beams
Where the old ghosts cry
I keep one oath burning
In the bloodline
Not for the walls
Not for the war
Not for the vows
That mean nothing anymore
Breakdown
Not for you
Not for this
Not for the poison in every kiss
Not for guilt
Not for shame
Not for living inside a blame
I go back
But I’m not yours
I go back
But I’m not sure
How much longer
How much more
Before I tear my life
From this door
Final Chorus
I don’t wanna go home tonight
There’s nothing there but smoke and knives
But I walk through the fire
For the boy inside
I don’t wanna go home tonight
I found somewhere I can breathe, I can feel alive
But I cross back into thunder
For the boy inside
Not forever
Not forever
One day I’ll break this chain
Not forever
Not forever
I won’t die this way
Outro
There’s a fire on the hill
And a storm at the door
I keep walking back
But not forevermore